Risk Taker

So one thing that I seem to experience is being a risk taker. I have realized the hard way, taking risks can come with good and bad consequences. With this, I continue to work on my self confidence. My self confidence or self worth has never been very high. I think I have let circumstances and people define who I am. Now, I am trying to work harder at this. I have tried or am trying the whole possibilty of dating (as it is experienced online). I started it around the holidays of 2019 and have kind of recently opened it back up again. But to be honest, I am not good at it. I think i think too deeply and misread people. I also do not understand this whole swipe left or right process. Some of peoples profiles are too much. They might not spell correctly, have some weird pictures and the list could continue. Then it is their whole communication style. Do they only write one word? Or is what they say interesting? Do they have any values? To be honest, I have never dated. All my past relationships I met at work or through friends. So I am totally clueless. Now since it is my daughter and I, it is a package deal. They have to understand that. They also have to understand my heart still hurts. And I know this is a process. Because truly all I want is someone loving, patient, provider, has their Faith and open in their communication. Many people can be anyone online, which I also have learned the hard way. I guess life is a constant learning experience.