Engagement

Last Thursday, offically one week ago from today I got engaged. This is a moment I have waited a long time for and feel as though I dreamed about. Over the years, I have watched numerous family members, loved ones and friends get married and start families. Sometimes though some people I know have had different outcomes and not always the ones also as expected. Such as having to deal with health issues, not being able to having children for various reasons or maybe their partner not exactly being the person they were supposed to be. For a long time I prayed for God to bring me someone, in my heart hoping this person would love and care for my daughter, be a man of God, motivated, fun, but also someone who I also could enjoy having a family together (them having their own children and also having one together). I was told by a pastor of my church last year a conversation that has always stayed with me: Write your requests down (why I love prayer journals) and see what God can do. He really got me to think deeply about this and I also stopped putting so much pressure on myself and letting things go. My future husband, by far, not only meets all the items I have dreamed/wrote down about, but is even a greater gift from God because of all his additional skills, personality and his love and kindness. When I first came across his profile (yes I will reveal I met him on a Christian based dating site) that I still remember the feeling (of joy or you could say the Holy Spirit that came over me) when I saw him and his two children. I specifically remember praying to God that night and saying: "Please God let this guy respond." I will never forgot that evening. Over the last few months, it has been such a continued blessing. I have seen God first hand in our relationship and with now entering marriage. Also, it is one thing to love someone else and to feel loved, but it is a even bigger blessing his beautiful children and the love/compassion I feel/show for them. My best friend since high school would always tell me to let go and how God would work things out. She also always has been patient with me and has listened to my heart and knew God had so much in store for me. When I got proposed to: all the things he said and did were so beautiful. I am so excited for our engagement and it still feels like a dream.