Emotions and Flying Solo

Emotions and flying solo Being a parent is never easy. Sometime I remember watching my parents as a child and not understand why they would be upset with me. Although, now, I get it. There were often times in the journey of being alone as a parent where I cried. When the process orginally started, in terms of the divorce and the busy time of being a teacher and maintaining high performance; I felt like a volcano about to erupt. There were times this academic school year that I had to just cry. I cried in the bathroom, I cried in the teachers lounge, I cried in the outside of the school, in the principal office, in the classroom and in my car. I CRIED. Although, I have learned, there is nothing wrong with crying. It is better to release it, then hold it on. I cried because I wanted my students to be successful, I cried because I did not know where my life was headed with my daughter, and I cried because I felt like a failure. I learned, I am not a failure. God loves me despite what I have gone through and only wants the best for me. He wanted me and is still guiding me to be in a happy marriage ( in time). He knows my hearts desires of wanting a family and how much I love my daughter. He also knows it is okay to express my emotions. It's Normal.