Our Foundation and changes

One of the churches I go to has had the central focus be on foundation and how our life is in reflection to God. Our foundation and how we live has to line up. Today as I was at my mom's house, she showed me my dad's death certificate. Before showing it to me, she read it off to me. The thing is that I spent time in the medical field and studied what the doctor's had diagnosed my dad with. I think seeing this visual brought back those hidden feelings of grief I try to mask under my layers. It was my dad's heart and his oxygen level/lungs that got the best of him. His body could only take so much and we have to be mindful how we treat our bodies. What do we put in them? What do we say to ourselves? What do we focus on daily? It is one thing to have a health condition, but also another thing to eat what is nutrition (appropriate). So many people are not shown what is right. It is moments like this, that make us changes things. I can not ever get back my dad, but I can only try to do my best and help others. Physical and mental health are so important. I think, unfortunately, it sometimes takes tragedy or illness, to make us realize things. I started my journey back in September to weight loss because I was so heavy. Walking/hiking put a lot of pressure on my heart because my body was having to do extra force. At the start of my weight loss journey, I was 224 pounds. Now I have reached one of my goals as far as weight is concerned and am 180. I still have to push myself to let go of specific foods and have to continue to work out. I think going through my dad's health and visually seeing him sick was eye opening. What kind of life do we want to live? This has been a rollercoaster, because also my best friend from high school, has been very ill with Crohn's disease. I pray for her, but with any illness/sickness it is a time process. With that said, it is important to remember our foundation: Is God first? Is he putting specific people in our lives for a reason/season? I have had so many people enter my life in the last few years. Some for a short time and others for a longer period. What stands out to me is that, all of these people have impacted me in one way or another. About a few weeks ago, while at Academy, Hanna saw a mannequin in the men's section. She walked up to it, and said, "Daddy," and started talking to it. I had to hold back the tears. Her dad I feel is almost invisible and I know she is now three and becoming more aware of things. When I mentioned this to my group at church we talked about how she was not aware of what she is doing (since she is so little), but also that it was once again a good thing that I walked away from the situation because she would have thought that was normal. I try to put this positive foundation in her life with focus around God. I sometimes have to pray for my patience because it is hard doing it all. With that said, it is important to cherish LIFE and our health.